I've been brain damaged my entire life and that brain damage is mental fog and chronic fatigue
So four years.
Welp, my brain and body fuckery has been going on for a long time before that. 2009 was the last year I was mentally well and when I say mentally well, I say that in relative terms to the rest of my life.
I've been fatigued since day 1
I've had memory problems since a teenager, I was born with two variables of my five variable sleep disturbance that I've fixed in the last 4 years (asthma and rhinitis), and probably gluten.
Previous to being laid off in 2009, the fatigue was strictly a mental health issue that was hidden until 2010 due to my anxiety. Dr. Ocana from the North Shore ADHD clinic made that observation when he reconfirmed my ADHD diagnosis in 2014 and I agree with him. My entire family is extremely anxious so I guess that's genetic as well.
ADHD is an executive function disorder. Executive functions being self-awareness, inhibition, non-verbal working memory (holding things in your mind), verbal working memory (self speech, inner monologue), emotional self-regulation, self-motivation, planning and problem solving.
ADHD is treated by two primary classes of pharmaceuticals, methylphenidate and amphetamine salts. Not enough dopamine and/or norephinephrine in the brain. Understimulated.
Here's the thing about under-stimulation. It can be compensated by environmental stimulation and my environment was why I was top on my sales team from 2007 to 2009.
My mental health (mood, memory, fatigue, skin) have been terrible for 85% of my life. I have had pockets in my life of good mood, good memory, no fatigue and good skin) but by an large, it's been one big reactional pizza-faced shit sandwich.
However, from 2007 to 2009, my mental health and skin took a major upswing due to the fact that was I travelling all the time, I was doing what I'm the best at doing and that's helping people and most importantly, I didn't have time nor felt the need to trich.
So fucking trich. Compulsive hair pulling. According Psychiatry 3rd edition by Tasman and company, relieving anxiety is almost always associated with the act of hair pulling. I've had a derm problem since day 1, anxiety since day 1, fatigue since day 1 and a fucking impulse control disorder since day 1.
After I got laid off in 2009, my trich went out of control and the act of triching or chronic repetitive cervical flexion/hyper-flexion, turned my mental health only fatigue into a mental health AND physical health nightmare which I determined in the last month due to a significant and cannabis related mental health improvement meets the Fukuda, Canadian Consensus and something criteria for Myalgic Encephalomyelitis.
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Up till 2009. That fatigue was strictly a mental health issue that was hidden by another mental health issue. ADHD hiding anxiety.
After I got laid off, that mental health only issue turned into a systemic mental and physical health issue that got worse and worse. ADHD, insomnia, gluten sensitivity, sleep got completely derailed.
After I got laid off, that mental health only issue turned into a systemic mental and physical health issue that got worse and worse. ADHD, insomnia, gluten sensitivity, sleep got completely derailed.
Fatigue
Frank,
We've known each other for about four years and that's based on what you and I talked about in the early days of our relationship and that's the shit show known as the Canucks.
Benning and Linden became Canuck management in the 14-15 season.
Dorsett, Sbisa, Kassian.. fuck what shit show
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So four years.
Welp, my brain and body fuckery has been going on for a long time before that. 2009 was the last year I was mentally well and when I say mentally well, I say that in relative terms to the rest of my life.
I've been fatigued since day 1
I've had memory problems since a teenager, I was born with two variables of my five variable sleep disturbance that I've fixed in the last 4 years (asthma and rhinitis), and probably gluten.
Previous to being laid off in 2009, the fatigue was strictly a mental health issue that was hidden until 2010 due to my anxiety. Dr. Ocana from the North Shore ADHD clinic made that observation when he reconfirmed my ADHD diagnosis in 2014 and I agree with him. My entire family is extremely anxious so I guess that's genetic as well.
ADHD is an executive function disorder. Executive functions being self-awareness, inhibition, non-verbal working memory (holding things in your mind), verbal working memory (self speech, inner monologue), emotional self-regulation, self-motivation, planning and problem solving.
ADHD is treated by two primary classes of pharmaceuticals, methylphenidate and amphetamine salts. Not enough dopamine and/or norephinephrine in the brain. Understimulated.
Here's the thing about under-stimulation. It can be compensated by environmental stimulation and my environment was why I was top on my sales team from 2007 to 2009.
My mental health (mood, memory, fatigue, skin) have been terrible for 85% of my life. I have had pockets in my life of good mood, good memory, no fatigue and good skin) but by an large, it's been one big reactional pizza-faced shit sandwich.
However, from 2007 to 2009, my mental health and skin took a major upswing due to the fact that was I travelling all the time, I was doing what I'm the best at doing and that's helping people and most importantly, I didn't have time nor felt the need to trich.
So fucking trich. Compulsive hair pulling. According Psychiatry 3rd edition by Tasman and company, relieving anxiety is almost always associated with the act of hair pulling. I've had a derm problem since day 1, anxiety since day 1, fatigue since day 1 and a fucking impulse control disorder since day 1.
After I got laid off in 2009, my trich went out of control and the act of triching or chronic repetitive cervical flexion/hyper-flexion, turned my mental health only fatigue into a mental health AND physical health nightmare which I determined in the last month due to a significant and cannabis related mental health improvement meets the Fukuda, Canadian Consensus and something criteria for Myalgic Encephalomyelitis.
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